This past week has been a pain in the butt. I've been stressed, both by positive and negative situations. I've been anxious and trying to to remember that anxiety is ok, it's not going anywhere, I just can't let it control where I'm going. I've been lonely, because moving to a new place and not having a job and trying to find a job and not having anyone else who can relate to me at this very moment, is lonesome.
On the other hand, this week has reminded me that I've still got it. I aced a cognitive functioning test, with my heart racing, because when's the last time I took a test?!?! Especially one that lasts an hour and half. I met new people, went to new places, and had new experiences, all in the name of trying to find a job where I'll feel comfortable, where I'll thrive. I've been working really hard - but I've been doing it all for me, and that feels pretty great right now.
So.. a lot's been going on..but what hasn't happened is..a flare up! And that's a SUPER HUGE DEAL. I wont have to explain this to my fellow Crohnies out there but for those of you who don't know, when you have Crohn's disease and you're going through a stressful time in life, you're way more likely to have start having symptoms pop-up (diarrhea, cramps, nausea, pain) and this my friends is referred to as a flare up! Flare-ups are the worst, not only are you already stressed out but to add insult to injury, you're stuck in the bathroom when you probably need to be somewhere else!
What can I attribute this week's non-flare-up success to? PIZZA! Just kidding! But pizza is a part of it.
Yesterday afternoon, I hit a wall. I was tired and cranky, I'd had a really long day of feeling like a pinball, caught in a machine, being bopped around all over the place, with no control over the endgame. I could have kept working - I still had quite a bit to do before we go out of town this weekend - but I knew that the work would be subpar and that I'd done enough for the day. So, I poured myself a generous glass of red wine at 4:30 in the afternoon, and I laid on the couch, and I read a good book, and I sipped my wine, and I let myself relax. A couple of hours later, I ate some really delicious homemade pizza, followed by some chocolate chip cookies, and watched one episode of Transparent, one episode of It's Always Sunny, and one episode of Seinfeld. I treated myself because I deserved it and I'll get more accomplished today because of it.
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES MY FRIENDS! It's up to you, no one else can do it for you, no one else knows what you need exactly when you need it. You are your own best ambassador. And now..the pizza!
We started with homemade dough - added some marinara sauce - and topped that with some leftover homemade Vegan Ricotta from our Vegan Lasagna recipe.
Next, we added sliced mushrooms, broccoli, and green peppers.
After it baked, we topped it with crushed red pepper flakes and some of Minimalist Baker's Vegan Parmesan. Bon Appetit!
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend - we'll be traveling to pick up a canoe and to spend some much needed time with family and friends in the western region of the state - here's hoping it's not too cold!